I'm continually amazed at how much Twitter can make me think. This tweet in particular summed up how I view tarot reading and why I got so disheartened reading for others. "A reading which does not completely change someones perspective on life is a wasted opportunity" -Tarosophy.
People use me like a magic 8 ball. I'm not. I like reading for people it makes me feel like I'm helping people. My clients are important to me but when I fail to guide them I myself feel like a failure. Before my grandmother's death I failed one of my clients. So, I stopped.
Then I realized even in my fiction I've been trying to come to my purpose. I'd given myself a saucy alter ego in Lux and reached a truth.
“What?” she asked, blinking up at me.from my upcoming book Bad JuJu
“Sorry, right. I want to, let me start at the top. In coming to me you are looking to change your mutable future.”
“What?” she asked again, looking even more confused. I always hated that, it was like people never listened to what I was saying.
“I’m a witch doctor,” I said, making sure I evenly spaced out the words so there would be no confusion. “See, a tarot reader will tell you your future. Boom. That’s it. I, however, can do something more,” I said. It wasn’t ego. I really could. If I had to, I could even go through hell and back, if it was required. Though, the fees would be a right bitch.
Yes, I can tell you the future to a degree. But, I'd rather focus on how to change yourself and the circumstances in your life. Tarot is a stethoscope to the soul.
That's it.
I want to come back to my Tarot "Practice" and I want to help people, I will be doing so sparingly in December. I hope to help those that need it most.